Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I'm a quitter

Normally I wouldn't classify myself as a quitter, but I could argue that I am. My freshman and sophomore years of high school, I was a committed member of the debate team, a cabinet officer in Junior Statesmen of America, and a dancer who took both ballet and Chinese ethnic dance classes.

Needless to say, I quit all of these activities for the sake of fashion, journalism, and cheerleading. While I was winning numerous speaker awards and receiving top sixteen seedings at various debate tournaments, I wanted to do more than argue -- I wanted to write. While I was involved in the behind-the-scenes process for Junior Statesmen of America, I realized that politics was not for me -- I was more interested in grassroots activism. And while I had been a dancer since fourth grade, I began cheerleading in sixth grade -- and I wanted to rebuild the cheerleading program at my school.

So I quit. And I don't regret it a bit.

The moment I quit these activities, I began to take the train to a local fashion designer's studio every weekend to be her assistant. It was my first small escapade into the fashion industry, and I have never looked back.

A lot of you have been asking me about my college situation -- so yes, I was denied from the school I applied early to (I'm sure you can all figure out which school it is).

Of course I was sad. The next day, as I continued to work on my college applications, my college counselor told me that while I had the grades and scores to get into the top schools -- it's just not that easy to understand why I do what I do. I moped for a few hours because the truth is, I care about my education more than about any fashion publishing career at the point in my life where I am now (hey, I'm still seventeen). I want to harness my education and learn about a wide plethora of academic studies, which is why I am not pursuing a preprofessional degree in journalism or in fashion design. I want to pursue a study in feminist expression, combining my love for literature, art history, politics, history, and gender studies -- and oh, I am so excited for these educational opportunities in college.

So yes, I am a quitter.

But I quit for the right reasons. Last Friday, my English teacher asked our class, "If you didn't get into a certain college, do you really think your dreams in life are over?"

I know it's winter break, but I'm working hard right now -- I have my dreams and I'm not quitting this time. I hope you won't either. Happy holidays!

ex.oh.ex.oh
Miss Couturable
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